Oh Great.

Due to some.. Technical things, I forgot to update this blog, much less mention about the movie I watched that few days ago. Haha, so I forgot, who's to blame? Only me.

I won't say what I already forgot, but if you want to try it, look for the title, "Shinsei Toire no Hanako-san", yeah, that.

I've been going to school again, trying to finish my course, and trying to enjoy it once again, after those bad memories of mine before.. I still hope that "certain someone" will answer my cries hehe. You do know who you are, I'm just asking for a chance, if it doesn't work out, I'm not a sore loser, I will accept your decision after it.

If you do accept me, then.. I'll probably be the happiest man in the whole world! Now I only need you to let me be yours. If it's too hard for you to accept me, I'll gladly step down, it's not that hard when something hasn't started yet, don't worry.

Oh great, it became somewhat of a confession. Not that I mind though.

Of all the things..

I kept thinking of things that maybe are too much to give an answer to. Are we so weak that we can't resist temptation? Do we have so weak wills that we can't even stand up for ourselves?

I'm not going to preach to anyone since I'm no better than the rest. I'm just saying, can't we try harder?

Anyway, I'm done with the serious talk, now's the real thing.

I'm bored, so I decided to read, a manga to be exact. So far it releases me from boredom although I don't know for how long. Then I saw this horror movie that I tried to download. I'm going to try watching it right now and tell you the rest tomorrow. Well, that's it? Haha, sorry, I don't have much to say today.

See you tomorrow, reader/s.

=kevs=

(I'm getting scared)

It's so nice..

I forgot to write here last night, but then again, yesterday was a bit uneventful. So I slept soundly.

Dreaming.. I'm not sure whether to believe them or not, but last night while I was sleeping, I dreamed of something I honestly want to believe, I want it to come true, and soon.

Have you ever thought about a dream's meaning? If and when you want them to come true? Why you want them to be real? Or wanting to forget them so much? Maybe it's a good thing that some dreams are instantly forgotten the moment you wake up, but how about those other things you don't want to forget?

Oh, my dream? Well, there isn't much to say since I forgot most of them, but I guess I'll mention the other things I remembered, before I forget them anyway.

Well, the first thing that I still remembered.. Ah right, it was outside of our house. "She" was waiting for me, so then I walked outside. Well, I was a bit surprised when she jumped towards me and hugged me so tight. But it was a great feeling, so I smiled and hugged her back. She said she missed me so much, and yes, of course I do as well. She kissed me so many times in my face, and I wasn't able to stop her, rather, I did not want to, I mean, who would want your loved one to stop smothering you with so many kisses? I don't.

So then, she asked me if we could go out, I thought for a second, then I told her to wait for me, I'll just get money (from my mother, haha). She then smiled and waited for me. I almost melted then, but I hung on. I asked my mother, and through a series of chores and stuff, I managed to get some money for our date.

Well, needless to say, she jumped towards me again and rubbed her cheeks against mine, I did the same and told her we'll be able to go out this time. She was happy of course, and you know, given the chance, I kinda kissed her on the lips, sweetly as I could. She blushed, and hugged me tighter, whispering to me, "I love you". I said "I love you too" of course.

..Then I woke up. Oh how I wished it could have been real. Yes, I wanted that dream to come true so much. I think I'll just wait for it to happen though, hoping for something out of a dream, childish I guess, but I was really happy right then. ^^

=kevs=

(wishing for a dream come true)

Oops

Almost forgot to update, hahaha.

Well, I don't have much to say anyway.

Today here, hmm.. Oh, yeah, earlier this morning, it was quite hot, but now, whew, so cold, I like this season due to that fact. No, not the heat, the coldness, since we won't be experiencing any snows at all here, this is as close as it gets. But no rain, please, I've had enough of those to last me a lifetime.

On another note, I've been better these days because of a certain someone. I never knew I could smile like this again, and I'm not usually smiling. Thank you for being there for me. ^_^ Although I am not really sure if she'll be able to read this. But that's fine, I'm not expecting anyone to read this anyway, hehe.

This is it for now, unless I think of something to say again.

=kevs=

(who reads this stuff anyway?)

I know, I know

The day hasn't ended yet, I know that. I just thought that if I don't write this now, I may forget it tomorrow, so I'll do it now.

I've been thinking of doing something I had wanted to do before.

I'm gonna make a manga. Yes, I'll try doing that, I'll probably start next week, even though school starts (again) on Tuesday next week.

I'll probably do the updating here. A way to ease the loneliness I hope? And I'll do some other things in here.

I might sound boring to read and all, but if there was anyone who won't be, then I'm already your friend, haha. Why? Because even if my blog seems boring to read, you still tried to read it. Meaning you are interested, right?

Well, that's it for now, I'll write more when I think of another.

=kevs=

(love/life)

Have I been in a dream all this time?

I might not know or realize it even now, but there's this feeling that everything fits into place, I can't say if it's too good or too bad of a life, but I hope that for now, I won't need to wake up yet.

Should I talk about my life here? In a place where dreams can, if only for a bit, come true?

If there is such a thing as true love, should a person like me be allowed to have it? When is this dream going to end? Or when will it begin?

I've been trying to smile for a while now, even hiding the sadness that I still feel now and then. I knew things aren't always going to be happy, but am I to blame for asking for too much? In some cases where I thought I was happy, I wished then that it would happen all over again, but I think I'm just being selfish.

Anyway, thanks for reading this, I know it's kind of emo-ish at the moment, but when I get into the mood, I'll try to make it better. ^^

Oh, and good morning.

=kevs=

(ham and cheese)

When will my dream start?..

I tried to start making another blog, since the first one was a failure.. Due to some circumstances. Well, I created this for myself, something like a diary? Nah, maybe not that kind. I'm not expecting anything from this, not even expecting someone to read this. But if it's really destined to be read by someone, then I guess..

I'm not someone who likes doing these things, really, I just got in the mood for it, you know, writing things and all. Maybe I'll try harder at it this time. Who knows? I'll find someone who can appreciate this.

As I write this (and start this blog), I feel those memories that I really try not to remember. If anyone can help me overcome this sense of loneliness, then I'll be glad to talk to you, no, really, I'm serious. I'm not being emotional or anything, it's just a part of me.

Well, since it's that time already, I'll do this tomorrow, if I come back, which I'm sure I will. If anyone does come and "accidentally" read this by any chance, feel free to say anything. I'm not a negative person, just sad. For now, hopefully. ^^

=kevs=