I missed this blog~

It's been quite a while now, and I got in the mood to write something in here. Well, it doesn't really matter that much, since nobody reads this stuff anyway.

It has been almost a year huh? Too many things changed, too many things happened. There were those times that I'd rather not remember, but still, there are those times that I'll never want to forget.

Life is so surprising, but that's how it should be. ^_^

Too fast of a change?

It's too soon to be happy, but I can't help it. It is a fact that I may be the happiest man in the world now. I was always afraid of getting hurt again, but when I took the risk, I found out that it's worth it. ^_^

She was, without a doubt, a girl that came straight out of my dreams~ I don't know whether to believe it or not, since dreams.. They stop when you wake up. If this is what I feel it is, I don't ever want to wake up anymore. That's honestly what I feel right now.

We haven't been talking much, but it is my hope that we can even be closer to each other. I don't want to let go anymore.

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, and to say that I really like(love, actually) you~ ^_^

=kevin=

I love you..

Been too long~

I'm sorry to say that things aren't going so well.

I might need to select friends a bit better. I don't think the kind of "friends" I have now are really true friends.

I'll probably steer clear of some other people, they're just friends on the outside, but it's so disappointing.

I hope they change, because they're so unfriendly, and kind of jerky.

It's like what I always say, it's better to be alone and unhurt than to be with others but being continually hurt.

~Kevin.

This will just be quick~

My muscles still hurt, but not too much anymore. I went yesterday to a friend's house, it was nice even though there isn't much to see besides the necessary things. The free meal was the best though, hahaha, and I downloaded a Game that just came out, which is kinda nice I guess.

I'm more into anime-styled games so if there isn't a hint of them there, no thanks.

In any case, the day was enjoyable, although I felt really tired, I wonder why?

Today though, since it's around 6am right now, I'm gonna be preparing for school, studying and all. Hopefully, I can talk to a friend once again, ah let me just ask her if she'll be able to text me, if not, then there's always a next time, I'm not going to always be in a hurry.

I guess I should start now. Bye~

=kevs=

(not sure if this morning will be fine, I hope it would)

What a day~

It was alright at the beginning, going to school, getting subjects done, nothing eventful as far as lunch I guess. But at around 2, I think..

I was almost happy because we aren't going to have any class, it was a subject from 2-5pm, but then, our instructor told us to help carry chairs to be used for the mass tomorrow. Great.

I(we) went and perspired carrying those things, I even wounded my skin a bit, not sure where I got it, hopefully not anything metallic, and my feet felt heavy after all that. So tiring, really.

On a lighter note, and a very good thing that I did this day though is.. Well, talking to someone through text. She made me feel happier than I should be today, which made my very tiring day less tiring, wow, redundancy check, hahaha. I need more vocabulary if I have to continue. Anyway~

Thank you, really, that small thing (for some) you did is very big for me already. ^_^

I really want to be honest with you, but I'm afraid that if I try to tell you about it, you might avoid me.. But maybe I still would tell you about it, even knowing that I might possibly get hurt, cause you told me last time (I think, hahaha), that nothing will change if you don't do something about it.

I do hope that it won't hurt me as much~

If you want to ask me, or let me tell you about it, please do so, you know how to contact me.

=kevs=

(I know, it's kind of abrupt, but please bear with me)

Just for Fun I guess~

The other day, I posted an image from Suzumiya Haruhi, but the thing is, that one's edited.

Here's the original one:

That was from the first episode of the Second Season, The Bamboo Leaf Rhapsody. That was one time where she's seriously Melancholic, probably from reminiscing that time from 3 years ago.

Well, that's it, nothing else to talk about right now, hope you guys always read my blog. ^_^

=kevs=

(Currently trying to download Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood)

I have read before..

..and have believed that "miracles" are called as that, because they don't happen. Maybe I did, but not anymore.

If there is such a thing as a "miracle", then I think I may have already found it. Things like sudden sparks of feelings, I thought they don't happen. But earlier this morning, up to the time we talked, my mind was just full of her. I couldn't even begin to explain how that is, but one thing I'm certain of is that I really like it. I always feel like looking forward to talking to her, to see her, to meet her. I wonder if I can stay like this? Being happy again.. Is it alright for me to receive happiness again?

I watched "My Boyfriend is Type B" earlier, and I like it, it's not too dramatic, with some comedy, and well, it's a love story. I know some of you may have already watched it, since it already came out around 2005, but for those who haven't yet, you should watch it~! It's really nice. ^_^

Lastly, I just want to ask, you probably know who you are, "will you be my miracle?"

=kevs=

(hoping to stay happy forever with you)

Now Now..

I know I just put one new post earlier, but I can't help it, I have to say this.

Everyone's been telling me how great Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood is. And I couldn't agree more. Hahaha. Now, my only problem is, when should I start watching episodes? I want them to be complete right up to the last episode, so maybe I'll start watching it by next week. I hope I get the time for that.

My schedule at school is weird, Tuesdays and Thursdays, I start from 7:30am, then stop at 6:30pm, that's 11 hours at school. You'd probably think, so what? Well, thing is, every Wednesdays and Fridays, I only go to school at around 10:30am up to 2:00pm. Yes, I know, I don't understand as well. Anyways, let's leave it at that. It's my fault for being an Irregular student after all.

And today is the day I stop forgetting to bring my umbrella. Well, not that it would change a thing, since last time, the rain was so hard, the head's probably the only part of our body that won't be soaked in the rain, not to mention it might break the umbrella. But still, I'll try to remember bringing that thing, it might be useful, who knows?

I'm planning on going to Manila again soon, and for a reason. I'll just try to save money now, since I want to go there very soon. I hope I'll be welcome when I do come. Wait for me okay? Hahaha.

=kevs=

(really, I want to go there)

Am I Dreaming Again?

No, I do not feel like that, not anymore anyway. ^_^ It's just that her pose and all, melancholic, but kind of.. Alluring? Attractive? It somehow draws me to it. In any case..

I'm very much happy right now, because despite having experienced pain and hurting, I didn't know that someone I barely know cared more for me than any other friends I have in my life. It's too early to say that I feel "love", but I certainly felt special. I know it might not be the same for that person, barely knowing me and all, but just that small thing made me feel like there's hope to be found, even in just small things.

I am not expecting too much, but being like this is already making me less depressed, and who wouldn't like that? I'd be surprised if anyone voiced their objections with that.

Next to that, I don't want things to stop, I wish for them to go forward in a steady pace, and even develop to a point where I can tell myself, I want to live like this (with that person) forever. I'm getting excited every single day. ^_^ And yes, I already said I'm not expecting much, but hoping for something is better than expecting for it, only to be disappointed. At least by hoping, it's more of a positive thought. Hehe.

I'll just try to live more positively, and stop being depressed all the time. Not only for myself, for other people as well, especially for that person.

Thank you~ You made me start believing again.

=kevs=

(Doki Doki)

Oh Great.

Due to some.. Technical things, I forgot to update this blog, much less mention about the movie I watched that few days ago. Haha, so I forgot, who's to blame? Only me.

I won't say what I already forgot, but if you want to try it, look for the title, "Shinsei Toire no Hanako-san", yeah, that.

I've been going to school again, trying to finish my course, and trying to enjoy it once again, after those bad memories of mine before.. I still hope that "certain someone" will answer my cries hehe. You do know who you are, I'm just asking for a chance, if it doesn't work out, I'm not a sore loser, I will accept your decision after it.

If you do accept me, then.. I'll probably be the happiest man in the whole world! Now I only need you to let me be yours. If it's too hard for you to accept me, I'll gladly step down, it's not that hard when something hasn't started yet, don't worry.

Oh great, it became somewhat of a confession. Not that I mind though.

Of all the things..

I kept thinking of things that maybe are too much to give an answer to. Are we so weak that we can't resist temptation? Do we have so weak wills that we can't even stand up for ourselves?

I'm not going to preach to anyone since I'm no better than the rest. I'm just saying, can't we try harder?

Anyway, I'm done with the serious talk, now's the real thing.

I'm bored, so I decided to read, a manga to be exact. So far it releases me from boredom although I don't know for how long. Then I saw this horror movie that I tried to download. I'm going to try watching it right now and tell you the rest tomorrow. Well, that's it? Haha, sorry, I don't have much to say today.

See you tomorrow, reader/s.

=kevs=

(I'm getting scared)

It's so nice..

I forgot to write here last night, but then again, yesterday was a bit uneventful. So I slept soundly.

Dreaming.. I'm not sure whether to believe them or not, but last night while I was sleeping, I dreamed of something I honestly want to believe, I want it to come true, and soon.

Have you ever thought about a dream's meaning? If and when you want them to come true? Why you want them to be real? Or wanting to forget them so much? Maybe it's a good thing that some dreams are instantly forgotten the moment you wake up, but how about those other things you don't want to forget?

Oh, my dream? Well, there isn't much to say since I forgot most of them, but I guess I'll mention the other things I remembered, before I forget them anyway.

Well, the first thing that I still remembered.. Ah right, it was outside of our house. "She" was waiting for me, so then I walked outside. Well, I was a bit surprised when she jumped towards me and hugged me so tight. But it was a great feeling, so I smiled and hugged her back. She said she missed me so much, and yes, of course I do as well. She kissed me so many times in my face, and I wasn't able to stop her, rather, I did not want to, I mean, who would want your loved one to stop smothering you with so many kisses? I don't.

So then, she asked me if we could go out, I thought for a second, then I told her to wait for me, I'll just get money (from my mother, haha). She then smiled and waited for me. I almost melted then, but I hung on. I asked my mother, and through a series of chores and stuff, I managed to get some money for our date.

Well, needless to say, she jumped towards me again and rubbed her cheeks against mine, I did the same and told her we'll be able to go out this time. She was happy of course, and you know, given the chance, I kinda kissed her on the lips, sweetly as I could. She blushed, and hugged me tighter, whispering to me, "I love you". I said "I love you too" of course.

..Then I woke up. Oh how I wished it could have been real. Yes, I wanted that dream to come true so much. I think I'll just wait for it to happen though, hoping for something out of a dream, childish I guess, but I was really happy right then. ^^

=kevs=

(wishing for a dream come true)

Oops

Almost forgot to update, hahaha.

Well, I don't have much to say anyway.

Today here, hmm.. Oh, yeah, earlier this morning, it was quite hot, but now, whew, so cold, I like this season due to that fact. No, not the heat, the coldness, since we won't be experiencing any snows at all here, this is as close as it gets. But no rain, please, I've had enough of those to last me a lifetime.

On another note, I've been better these days because of a certain someone. I never knew I could smile like this again, and I'm not usually smiling. Thank you for being there for me. ^_^ Although I am not really sure if she'll be able to read this. But that's fine, I'm not expecting anyone to read this anyway, hehe.

This is it for now, unless I think of something to say again.

=kevs=

(who reads this stuff anyway?)

I know, I know

The day hasn't ended yet, I know that. I just thought that if I don't write this now, I may forget it tomorrow, so I'll do it now.

I've been thinking of doing something I had wanted to do before.

I'm gonna make a manga. Yes, I'll try doing that, I'll probably start next week, even though school starts (again) on Tuesday next week.

I'll probably do the updating here. A way to ease the loneliness I hope? And I'll do some other things in here.

I might sound boring to read and all, but if there was anyone who won't be, then I'm already your friend, haha. Why? Because even if my blog seems boring to read, you still tried to read it. Meaning you are interested, right?

Well, that's it for now, I'll write more when I think of another.

=kevs=

(love/life)

Have I been in a dream all this time?

I might not know or realize it even now, but there's this feeling that everything fits into place, I can't say if it's too good or too bad of a life, but I hope that for now, I won't need to wake up yet.

Should I talk about my life here? In a place where dreams can, if only for a bit, come true?

If there is such a thing as true love, should a person like me be allowed to have it? When is this dream going to end? Or when will it begin?

I've been trying to smile for a while now, even hiding the sadness that I still feel now and then. I knew things aren't always going to be happy, but am I to blame for asking for too much? In some cases where I thought I was happy, I wished then that it would happen all over again, but I think I'm just being selfish.

Anyway, thanks for reading this, I know it's kind of emo-ish at the moment, but when I get into the mood, I'll try to make it better. ^^

Oh, and good morning.

=kevs=

(ham and cheese)

When will my dream start?..

I tried to start making another blog, since the first one was a failure.. Due to some circumstances. Well, I created this for myself, something like a diary? Nah, maybe not that kind. I'm not expecting anything from this, not even expecting someone to read this. But if it's really destined to be read by someone, then I guess..

I'm not someone who likes doing these things, really, I just got in the mood for it, you know, writing things and all. Maybe I'll try harder at it this time. Who knows? I'll find someone who can appreciate this.

As I write this (and start this blog), I feel those memories that I really try not to remember. If anyone can help me overcome this sense of loneliness, then I'll be glad to talk to you, no, really, I'm serious. I'm not being emotional or anything, it's just a part of me.

Well, since it's that time already, I'll do this tomorrow, if I come back, which I'm sure I will. If anyone does come and "accidentally" read this by any chance, feel free to say anything. I'm not a negative person, just sad. For now, hopefully. ^^

=kevs=